Physical Update

Hi, I haven't told you what's going on with me physically in a while.

My neck is hurting again. The pain that left so quickly, within three days of my water fast, has been creeping back in and is full blown neck pain, constant and dull, again.

I am back up to 230 pounds. This is utterly depressing. Yesterday, I was sick and coudn't keep anything down. I got back down to 226. That felt good. Then today I went and got some oranges and grapefruits to make juice. Made the juice - it was YUMMY! And ate an entire pizza over the course of the day, too. Back up to 230. NIce.

My fingers are peeling. My skin is dry. I am not drinking enough water and there seems to be nothing at this point to make me. I am either fasting or feasting no matter what i do - either fasting without water or feasting on water. No such thing as middle ground. i wonder how to balance this.

I think that's about it. There is no new growth of the left-foot fungal infection, so at least that seems to have stayed away. The toungue is white. My face breaks out regularly.

I'm physically a mess. I have some things I'd like to record on video, but I'm so bothered by how I look, that I can't imagine that happening right now.

I really really really want to shave my head. All off. I love this idea. I just wonder - mabye i can say I did it for cancer? Cheap shot, cheap lie. Be brave enough to say I just wanted to shave my head. I don't know. But I think I need to do it, and do it now.

I'm losing it. Thanks for listening. Until next time.