230

230 pounds this morning.

Yesterday I ate 3 chicken tenders, 5 golf-ball sized boneless wings, 1/4 c. blue cheese dressing to dunk them in, 1/3 cookie sheet of s'mores treats, 1/2 c. vegan cauliflower soup, 1/8 c. guacamole with veggies, a piece of vegan chocolate silk pie.

I have eaten much more and gained much less. I even walked about 15 blocks yesterday.

I don't get it. I guess it's technically only three pounds, I was at 227 the day before. But you know how you're OK at one weight, and then it jumps that little bit and all of a sudden you're like, "Wait a minute!"

That's where I'm at today.

In other news, I found some free goal tracking software on line. Now I just need to set the goal to use it. HA! I put my goals in last night. And it's already helped - I did some things this morning that I would have normally put off. So, I hope it helps. I am excited about it. I think it will help.

I feel like I need to get some things in order before I start worrying about the weight loss. Sounds like classic bullshit excusing behavior to me. But, I do think I need to know that I can fit all the stuff in I want to in a day. Right now I don't feel like I can fit exercise in, I want to find another job, and I don't know when I can fit job hunting in. I feel that if I just get my basics down, then I can add in these other things. And tracking my progress is helpful.

I ate at Karyn's Cooked last night with a friend. I have gotten so far away from eating raw, and last night's meal reminded me how much I like how I feel when I eat healthy. I really want a dehydrator and a vita mix blender. I need to get on that. Also, I just uploaded some footage I shot, and while I was not one of the actors, there are times when I get in the shot when I am giving them direction. I look like a tank. I don't look like a woman at all - I look like Jaba the Hut. It's horrible. But my physical change is coming. I feel it. I think by the time I turn 40, I will have made some changes in the thin direction. I sure hope I get to live a while this lifetime - I'm 37 now, and I feel like I'm just starting to get it. Thanks for listening. Until next time.