I Got Cable Installed Today

... And you might be wondering what that has to do with weight loss.

It has to do with weight loss because I have never had cable without being bitter about it. Back when I younger and had roommates, they would insist that we get cable, and I would would begrudgingly agree and pay my share. When I moved to Chicago six years ago and got my little studio in Lincoln Park, I had free cable.

When I moved into this apartment, I didn't value cable. So I didn't get it. My apartment was my refuge, my sanctuary. There's no "The Hills" in a secluded retreat.

However, with the new year, I feel something has broken open within me. I no longer want to hide out from society. I want to be a part of the bigger world. Maybe I've been unwittingly grieving my MOm's death - I just have not wanted to be about in the world.

Now I do. And the world that I want to be a part of includes television - not just watching it, but being someone who helps create what's watched.

How can I be a part of that if I'm not aware of what's on?

The cable guy came this morning and hooked it up for me. As he left, I went through and scanned the channels. It's strange - I did get cable in my last apartment. But I never watched it. I had a different cable provider than I was used to, so it felt strange and foreign.

Today, I decided to go through and see what all I had included with my basic cable service. OH MY GOSH! So many channels! There were a couple channels I'm not currently getting that I think would be good for me to get, so I'll look into that. I'm just feeling very smart and empowered for choosing where I need my money, or energy, to be spent. Cable is an important purchase for me - it's a sign of me choosing where my dollars go. This is different than my normal "Hot Potato" relationship with any dollars that come my way.

It's an early step in understanding that I have full control over my dollars. This is obvious and elementary for much of the world; for me, it's new and important. It's transtlates into using the same philosophy with my body. I shape my financial affairs, I also shape my physical body.

I feel a part of the world. I know it sounds silly, but getting cable makes me feel like an adult. Thanks for listening. Until next time.